Every so often, I get in one of those "life is too short" kind of moods. Life is too short to be sitting in this office. Life is too short not to enjoy a beautiful day. Life is too short to live where you are no longer happy or be away from those you long for. The reality is that I'm trying to rectify the situation, but really. That saying "Life is what happens while you're busy making other plans" is true. C and I have been together just shy of one year and for at least half that time, I've been trying to move closer to him. What I wouldn't give to just pick up and move somewhere new- maybe Colorado or Wyoming - even though I swore I'd never leave Texas again. Maybe the hill country where my heart is happiest. But I'm too rational to do that. I tried it once and it didn't suit me. I worry to much about how to pay my next bill or money for "the future". 401-k and insurance and all that bs that is instilled as important at a young age.
I wish I had a little more gypsy and a little less "by the books".
I wish I had more heart and less head.
I wish I had the means and the guts to do what I really want to do.
I wish, I wish, I wish.
Here's to precious time, making changes for the right reasons and happiness. May we all find some.
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I believe it was said in the movie, Risky Business... "Sometimes you just hve to say 'What the f*ck'!".
Here's to going for happiness...
I'll loan you some of my gypsy, Sara. Seriously, you can have it. I don't need it at the moment.
Kind thoughts...
I wish that I had the guts to pick up and move to Texas. That darn head over heart, responsibility thing must be another sister-trait.
Yeah, I have SOME gypsy left. You're welcome to it honey.
Do what your heart tells you. If at first you dont succeed try and try again.
I say run--so long as your running toward something instead of away from something.
You know Diane.. I've always wanted to take up running...
I have NO gypsy. My mom has enough for my entire family, so I have always been happiest with my set little life. Hell, I can't even bring myself to apply for my perfect job in the hill country. Oh well. Maybe some day.
Great post, Sara. So many of us are in the same boat. It's hard to do anything without a safety net. But I think you've got some good friends, and a great guy to help you get on your feet. Greatness is never achieved by standing pat. We've all got to go all-in at some point in time.
i'll tell you what... while i can relate to the responsible things you are referring to... i decided that for me living for today and right now is all i really have... i made future plans once and it only ended up breakin' my heart... so far the day to day thing has made me happier than i ever dreamed i would be
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