I'm taking chances and weighing risks... love isn't something you can just quit, and as long as there is a chance that I might get to spend the rest of my life with her, well I'll take that chance.
I got an email from a friend this morning and that was the first line. Talk about making me catch my breath.. I can't put into words how closely this resembles my heart. Nothing is perfect, but there is such a thing as happy and that is all I can ever hope to maintain. It takes a lot of work so as to not upset the delicate balance. It takes smiling when you don't want to smile and laughing when you don't feel like laughing and loving when all you want to do is sleep. My thought is, if it makes him happy and doesn't make me miserable, it's worth it.
Usually when we're ending a phone call, I make a point to say "I love you." I never drop the "I" because to me, it's important. It's not casual, to me. It's something I mean every single time and I want to say it as such. Whether he recognizes it or not, at least I know that I told him. It used to bother me that sometimes he rolls "love you" and "bye" into one word- sort of like, "loveyoubye", but it doesn't anymore. In fact, it makes me smile.. that's my guy.
As long as there's the chance I'll be lucky enough to spend the rest of my life with him, telling him "I love him", making him smile, well, I'll take that chance.